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One Day I’ll Tell Her

October 23, 2021 in Motherhood, Warrior Princess - No Comments
One day I’ll tell her how hard it was.
How completely and utterly heartbreaking it was.
How I couldn’t figure out which way was up, what we were going to do, or how we would figure it out.
 
One day I’ll tell her how I sat there in the chair when the doctor gave us the diagnosis and my heart completely stopped. How my body went numb and I could see his mouth moving but I simply couldn’t comprehend the words that were coming out of his mouth.
One day I’ll tell her how it rocked her Daddy.  The strongest man I know suddenly reduced to a pile of rubble and in the same breath grabbing his sword, ready to go into battle for his little girl.  An anchor for both of us when our world was turned on it’s axis.
 
I’ll share with her sometimes I would cry in bathroom by myself so the NICU nurses wouldn’t see me.
 
I’ll share with her we used to live those days in 5 minute intervals. Thinking if we made it through just five more minutes, we were doing good.
One day I’ll pull out all of the pictures I have from our months in the NICU and tell her these stories.  I have hundreds upon hundreds of photos.  I heard once you take pictures of things you are afraid of losing……
I’ll share with her that she spent most of that time in her Daddy’s arms.  He held her as much as the nurses would let us.  Hoping and praying some of his strength would transfer over to her.
 
I’ll share with her that at night, it felt like she and I were the only people awake in the world. Cocooned in the darkness with only the hums and beeps of the monitors breaking the quiet.
 
I’ll share with her how I would watch her sleep, in awe of how such a tiny little person was so strong and brave. My fingertips resting lightly on the large scar on her chest.  Feeling her tiny chest rising up and down.  Up and down.  Up and down. 
 
I’ll share with her how at times I felt like I was drowning and then in an instant–she would smile or open her eyes and I was soaring.
One day I’ll tell her how I used to walk around in a daze.  Amazed at how the rest of the world kept going about their day without a care in the world when our entire world was fighting for her life.
 
One day I’ll tell her how scared I was that I was doing every single thing wrong. That I second guessed even what outfit I put her in.
I’ll tell her I prayed and pleaded and made every promise to God–if He just got her through this.  Making bargain after bargain with Him.
 
Maybe one day I’ll tell her I questioned if I was strong enough, smart enough, and good enough to be her mama.
 
But not right now💛
Jaime

Hi everyone! Thanks so much for stopping by! My name is Jaime! Wife to my better half, James, who is my moon and all of my stars. We are parents to our little warrior princess, Callie Grace. We started this blog to share our journey as we navigate through our crazy beautiful life. Callie is a lower limb amputee and I am a Type One Diabetic. We are hoping to change the face of beauty one step at a time! We hope by sharing our story, you leave with a little bit more inspiration and hope! Thank you so much for stopping by and joining our tribe!

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Hi Y'all! I’m Jaime, a proud working mama, author, girl boss and wifey to an ultra-adorable husband. I am a huge book nerd, I drink coffee like my life depends on it, and run on dry shampoo and Amazon Prime. Leopard print is my favorite color. I am a story teller at heart and this blog is a virtual scrapbook of our crazy beautiful life. I'm a Type One Diabetic and our little warrior princess Callie is a lower limb amputee. By sharing how we’ve chosen to flourish in the garden we’ve been planted in, we hope you can take some small nuggets of hope, inspiration, and laughter. We are so grateful that you’ve found us—welcome to the fam. We embrace our perfectly imperfect lives and don’t let the doctor’s appointments, spreadsheets, speaking engagements, 10th birthday parties to plan, housework or date nights overwhelm us. Those things are just the beautiful reminders of all the blessings in our lives. Read More

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