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I Don’t Have….

March 16, 2022 in Motherhood, Warrior Princess - No Comments

I don’t have any happy, joyful, beautiful newborn pictures with Callie.

I don’t have any pictures of her nestled up on my chest after giving birth.

I don’t have any pictures of her with James after he cut the cord.

I don’t have any heart warming pictures of her in the hospital with a custom made sign announcing her name and arrival in the world to all of our friends and family.

I don’t have any pictures of James looking down at his two girls on the happiest day of our lives.

If I’m being perfectly honest, the happiest day of our lives…..was also the hardest.

I don’t have a gorgeous birth announcement we sent out–joyfully introducing her to the world.

All I have are pictures of Callie connected to life saving medical equipment in the NICU.

All I have are pictures of me and James were we look shell shocked and stunned.

Pictures where I’m delicately holding her because one wrong move could split her ribs after her heart surgery.

Pictures where the grief and mourning are etched into my my husband’s face.

Pictures where a zipper scar splits her in half and you can’t see most of her because she’s covered in bandages and wires.

And as the mama to a medically complex little girl who didn’t get the chance to have a “normal” birth experience, it’s ok to talk about that grief.  It’s ok to talk about how I wish I could have had those things and how our experience was markedly different than others.  It’s ok for me to admit I had PTSD after her birth where the sounds and smells of hospitals were extremely triggering.

It’s ok to admit to the feelings I get when I do see those absolutely beautiful pictures from other families–the mixture of longing, joy, jealousy, hurt, disappointment, happiness, and sadness.

Homesick for a place I’ve never been.

 

Jaime

Hi everyone! Thanks so much for stopping by! My name is Jaime! Wife to my better half, James, who is my moon and all of my stars. We are parents to our little warrior princess, Callie Grace. We started this blog to share our journey as we navigate through our crazy beautiful life. Callie is a lower limb amputee and I am a Type One Diabetic. We are hoping to change the face of beauty one step at a time! We hope by sharing our story, you leave with a little bit more inspiration and hope! Thank you so much for stopping by and joining our tribe!

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Hi Y'all! I’m Jaime, a proud working mama, author, girl boss and wifey to an ultra-adorable husband. I am a huge book nerd, I drink coffee like my life depends on it, and run on dry shampoo and Amazon Prime. Leopard print is my favorite color. I am a story teller at heart and this blog is a virtual scrapbook of our crazy beautiful life. I'm a Type One Diabetic and our little warrior princess Callie is a lower limb amputee. By sharing how we’ve chosen to flourish in the garden we’ve been planted in, we hope you can take some small nuggets of hope, inspiration, and laughter. We are so grateful that you’ve found us—welcome to the fam. We embrace our perfectly imperfect lives and don’t let the doctor’s appointments, spreadsheets, speaking engagements, 10th birthday parties to plan, housework or date nights overwhelm us. Those things are just the beautiful reminders of all the blessings in our lives. Read More

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